What I was feeling when I broke up with Jordan and discovered she was engaged

breaking up with her over the phone

It was a very awkward and unpleasant thing for me to do, and I completely regret being rude to Jordan because we ended things on bad terms. I just knew that breaking up was the right thing to do because our personalities clashed. We had different goals in life. When she told me that she had been engaged to another man, I had mixed feelings about it. I wasn't sure whether to believe her or not. I was angry, upset, and happy at the same time. Angry and upset with myself, but happy for her. I was disappointed in myself for not treating her right, but I was also excited that she had moved on to bigger and better things. I was torn up because it is difficult for me to let go.  It was rude of her to treat me that way but I guess I deserved it. It's hard for me to admit, but we weren't right for each other. I will truly miss her when I go back to the West.  I will always have feelings for her, no matter what.